How many of us fear approaching God when our life looks something like my nails?
Chipped, broken, unpolished, splotchy, messy and unrefined...
Oh, just me? Yeah, I didn’t think so.
Life.is.hard.
Living in a fallen world is hard.
Going to God during the hard...is hard
Looking down at my hands really reminded me of that today...not that I needed a reminder of life being hard, but sometimes I need a reminder that I can come to God just like this.
Psalm 139 was touched on by our Pastor Sunday and I’ve read it quite a few times in the last 24 hours. I feel so drawn to this imagery. These few verses have been especially loud in my mind.
“Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.”
Psalms 139:7-12
Maybe it’s because when my mind and spirit look like my nails, I try to hide.
Maybe it’s because when I am overwhelmed with frets and anxiety of life, I retreat into myself as if God Himself can’t see me.
Truth is, He sees me.
Truth is, I can come to Him how I am but i will not leave like I came.
Truth is, He accepts me at my worst and transforms me to my best.
Truth is, He is the only power that can take my dark broken spirit and transform it into light.
He formed me.
He loves me.
He sees me.
Amen.
Amen.
