Thursday, November 5, 2015

The meditation of my heart

Psalm 19:14
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight, O Lord, my Strength and my Redeemer.

The meditation of my heart, the thoughts that i ponder throughout the day, the words I repeat to myself, are they acceptable in Gods sight? I'm not proud to say it, but most of the time I would prefer to keep my thoughts to myself. I am the queen of worse-case scenario and I am type A to the core. One thing out of place, one timeline not met, and it can quickly unravel my entire day. It is usually in the waiting phases of life, the praising Him in the in between times, and in the uncertain-can't see past my own pain-moments, that the meditation of my heart becomes an untangled anxious mess. It's in those times that i get so wrapped up in me and I forget who is in control. My heart and head don't always communicate and the meditations of my heart can get ugly really quickly. It is the in-between phases of life when we really grow. It's in the long periods of waiting, we learn patience. In the ups and downs of grief, we learn that God is the ultimate comforter. In times of extreme sickness, we learn that He is the ultimate healer. Breathe...slowing down to breathe in all He is while we wait. Slowing down to thank Him because He is the same God who brings the rain and then forms the rainbow. He is God. Resting in that tonight.

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